Neida Teresa

It’s been a lot of years since I last wrote something on this site, so many in fact that I didn’t even remember that I had a WordPress account outside of the one I use for work. Something about finding this site again makes me sad, mostly because if I’d let myself write on it regularly as I initially planned, I would be nearly 6 years into blogging instead of still being a newbie. Despite my last post (the one about how anything worth doing takes work), I didn’t do the work I needed to to build this site into the community space I wanted it to be.

So much has happened since I was last here, so much that I don’t even think the Neida who opened this account would freaking believe me if I told her. I’ve gained and lost weight. I’ve graduated college. The person I loved when I started this ended things with me (after I had ended things with her a few months prior) and I had a whole other 3-year relationship after that. I was supposed to get married (I’m not going to anymore). I finally started that YouTube channel I’d been dreaming about! I did some writing programs, I lived abroad for a few months, I finally saw the West Coast. TikTok is a thing! Can confirm that 2017 Neida would not believe that musica.ly was able to successfully rebrand into the largest social media platform in the world.

I also finally got that tattoo. I’ll put a picture below. I’ve never seen myself as the most photographically gifted person, but I think I’m finally in a place where I’m not afraid to try. I think that’s why, more than anything, I finally feel comfortable “blogging” again. I’m not trying to use this as my launchpad into worldwide fame anymore (that’s what TikTok’s for baybee!!!). I’ve realized that in addition to things taking work, they also take courage. Courage is not an absence of fear. It is the presence of mind to feel the fear, feel the fear and do the thing anyway. That’s what I want to do here. I hope, if you’re reading this, you’ll join me on that journey.